Somebody from the company wanted to take pictures of what I had done to this machine of theirs

They seemed to want to take more than just photos of it but also me and my condition. I was ashamed at myself

The rep was so happy to find a way to get both a picture upstairs and me in the background downstairs in a creative way, asking if it’s ok I indulge his creative direction as I am feeling this way.

I have such a wonderful feeling come over me. Almost bliss, but definitely serenity. I want to hold on to this feeling as long as possible. Did I put a hole in that machines head? I don’t remember exactly what happened but I know I could find out.

All in my home?